I'm sick and tired.
I need to do this.
I need to go school regularly.
I need to be a better person.
I need to get good grades.
I need to graduate.
I need to get out and find my path in life.

I got into higher nitec.
But not early childhood, it's retail merchandising.
Sigh, i never wanted a strenous job.
I want a job which interacts with kids and help them grow to be a better person.
But no~ i have to get a job which makes me goes into the retail industry.
Why, thank you.
Thank you luck for not making me head into a job i really wanted.

Oh well, now i have to get ready for school tomorrow. Yay.
Not.

I've been stressing out over studies, and him.
As usual, luck not want me to try something new.

So apparantly, i will be used as a sex dummy or a love dummy for him. So much for being in love.

I think i'm meant to be a single lady with a house full of cats. But i pray that i be successful at the very least.

They always say, "the road to success is always lonely."

I need to get out from this cycle.
Thats why i hate making friends.
Too tight, then emotionally dependent then feel leftout.
I hate being a girl.